There were times as a girl that I was becoming more conscious of it, by the way people treated me because I had money.

我在小的时候有时就会感觉到，人们会因为我有钱就区别对待我。

It wasn't even my money.

但那都不是我的钱啊。

You know, as a little kid, it was people...... I'd noticed people treating me differently because my parents had money.

就是，作为一个孩子，我能感觉到人们那么对我是因为我爸妈有钱。

So that's even, you know, one more step removed.

但这个脑回路够远的。

I didn't... I never really understood that, because I couldn't give them my parents' money.

我真的弄不明白他们为什么，因为我又不能把我爸妈的钱给他们。

So I didn't really think it was a reason to treat me in a different way.

所以我真的不觉得他们应该因此就对我不一样。

But, I think that's why now, in friends that I have now, the major quality I look for is sincerity, because I think there is a lot of that.

而这就是为什么我现在交朋友最看重的就是真诚，因为我觉得这真的很重要。

And I didn't realise that when I was young because I was quite a child then.

我在年轻的时候没能想通这一点，当时真的很幼稚。

But now I see it. So...

但我现在明白了。所以……

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I was going to school one day, and there was, I saw it in one of the news boxes, a huge picture of both my parents.

有一天我去上学，那天我在报纸的新闻版块看到了一张我爸妈的巨大照片。

And there was a rip down the center of the picture.

照片中央有一道裂缝。

And this was before I had been officially told they were getting divorced.

而当时他们还没有正式告诉我他们刚刚离婚了。

And I came out of school that day, and there was a swarm of photographers and paparazzi，and...

等我当天从学校出来的时候，外面围满了摄影师和狗仔队。

All they seemed to be waiting to ask me questions.

他们似乎都等着问我问题呢。

I mean, it was... I wanted to stay in school bacause I wanted to have a normal day, into all this.

我想说，我当时只想呆在学校里，我只是想过上平凡的一天，不想经历这些东西。

But, it makes that much more difficult to deal with your own personal emotions and to think about, you know, your family and your brothers and what they're going through, knowing that you're gonna walk out the building and there's a bunch of people running after you asking you difficult questions.

但是，当你知道你一出门就被一群人追着问各种麻烦问题的时候，你真的很难控制自己的情绪，你会去想你的家人、你的兄弟们，会去想他们现在正在经历什么。

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I remember once I was on a job in Australia.

我记得我当时在澳大利亚工作。

And this man walked up to me, who I never met, and says "What does it feel like to be wealthy?"

有一个我从来没见过的男人走过来问我说：“有钱是一种什么样的感觉？”

And I was like "Excuse me?"

而我当时就想：“啊？什么鬼？”

And he goes "What does it feel like to never have felt any pain?"

结果他继续问：“你这样从来没经历过痛苦，是一种什么感觉？”

And that really upset me, not because I was upset for myself, but because I was upset for him.

这真的让我很恼火，而且我并不是为我自己感到恼火，我是为他感到恼火。

I was bothered by the fact that he could be so ignorant, and that there are people out there like that who could, like, say such a blanketed thing and just be so downright stupid and, you know, not use the brain that they had.

我恼火是因为他居然能够如此无知，是因为发现居然有人能问出这么荒谬的问题，因为有人竟然能够这么愚蠢、说话不用脑子。

That's what bothered me, not that what he said really wounded me deep down, just the fact that there really are people out there who think like that, to think that with money comes happiness.

这才是真正让我恼火的地方，并不是他说的话伤到我了，而是居然有像他这样的人认为有钱就代表快乐。